In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps. Proverbs 16:9

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Self Proclaimed Stuffer

I haven't written anything in awhile, because it has been awhile since anything in the adoption world has happened. It has been over a MONTH since we have moved on the referral list. After the first couple of weeks, it was fine, because it's in God's hands, right? Well, now I think I might be starting to panic a little. You see. . .I am like a walking manifestation of anxiety symptoms. You would never know it, because I am seemingly an easy going person and I love to laugh and I am really funny (just kidding). I think I'm a stress stuffer, because I rarely think I am stressed. I stuff my stress, so it manifests itself in physical ways and then I stress about those. All of that to say, I think I am either dying of some disease or I'm getting a little stressed about the list not moving. This morning, I decided that it is probably the latter. The fact that I haven't even wanted to write on my blog or check the list is a testament to my self proclaimed stress stuffer syndrome. I don't even want to think about the adoption, because it's a little to disappointing right now:( I really, truly, and deeply believe that God has the perfect child for us and will bring that child to us at the perfect time, but it is definitely not a belief derived from feelings, because I certainly don't feel that way right now. I'll look for a couple of semi interesting pictures. There is one of Leah's first skiing trip and one of Spencer at his Thanksgiving party.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Hang in there! I can only imagine how hard it is to have to wait like this. It's like when you go on a date with a guy you like and then wait and wait for him to call you. Not fun - at all! But that boy will call you! I promise!
And btw-you are funny!