In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps. Proverbs 16:9

Monday, March 14, 2011

Should we celebrate?

Usually after each time we move a spot on the list, I am soooo excited and I get in a mood where nothing can get me down. In light of the instability of Ethiopia's adoption program, I feel like there are some reigns holding me back from my usual excitement. I am still thrilled, but I can feel that I am not allowing myself to get all crazy about it. I am having a hard time trying to figure out where I should sit during these waiting months. Last Friday, I just let myself be sad for an afternoon - feeling the impact of the uncertainty with ET adoptions. But I knew I didn't want to stay there. When I feel bummed and even preoccupied with all of this, I do continue to go back to what I wrote in my last post. I can't always make myself feel or not feel a certain way, but I can know truths about our situation. My God antenna is high right now. So much of what I hear in church or even on facebook, of all places, feels like it applies to me and our adoption. For instance, someone wrote on facebook a quote that I am still thinking about by William Barclay:

"When we pray, we must always remember three things. We must remember THE LOVE OF GOD, which ever seeks and desires only what is best for us. We must remember THE WISDOM OF GOD, which alone knows what is best for us. We must remember THE POWER OF GOD, which alone can bring to pass that which is best for us. He who prays with a perfect belief and trust in the love, the wisdom and the power of God will find God's peace." AMEN!

It's hard to pray, Lord, give me what is best, because all I want to pray is please give me this cutie little baby that I am picturing in my mind.

Anyway, some good news that hasn't been 100% substantiated, but really close, is that MOWA is deciding to process 20 letters per day instead of the initial cutback number of 5. That is a big difference. If that is the case, then things will slow down, but that is totally fine. It's like when you go shopping and come home and tell your husband that you spent $300, so that when you tell him that you actually only spent $70 it doesn't seem like that big of a deal. Maybe MOWA is just using some psychology here?

If you think of it, keep praying for the orphan and adoption situation in Ethiopia. Thanks to all who read this, it means a lot.


Fattymelt said...

We are adopting from Ethiopia, as well, and have seen this "rumor" (I'm not sure what to call it until it is official) repeated in numerous places. However, it seems that it mostly stems from people with the IAN adoption agency, or people who heard it from people with the IAN agency. I was wondering if you heard it from somewhere else, unrelated to IAN?

hollysue said...

I actually heard it first from a friend who is using another agency, but most of my ties are also from IAN. I'm hoping it is true, though.

connie said...

That is a great quote you posted by William Barclay. For me personally I wish my head knowledge would align with my heart! I have the same longing as you in wanting our daughter pretty much now while in the same breath saying Lord I want your will. I am happy to hear that you can find joy in your cirucmstances that is a good place to be. Blessings Holly!