I was born wanting to be a part of a club. I grew up under the gentle guiding of two highly trained, "Love and Logic," parents, so I had many choices in life, including in what clubs I choose to enroll. I was in sports, Girl Scouts, choirs, youth group, newspaper, a sorority of sorts, post college singles group (of which I was a card carrying member for many, many years) and the list goes on. Basically, if there was a group of people, I wanted in, no matter what skill set was required.
In the past two years, I have found myself ascribing to a new set of clubs and teams that I don't exactly appreciate. It is one of the first times that I would love to unjoin a club. The clubs I want to exit are not the kind where we have written agenda, a common goal and matching T-shirts. They are the clubs that change you. And it doesn't tickle. I feel like I could use the same cool motorcycle arm raise to anyone in these clubs and a world of words would have just been spoken. Anyone, who is a single parent just knows the strain. Anyone who has lost a spouse, just knows the unexplainable of it all. Anyone, who has been through an unrealized adoption, just knows the years it took from your life. Anyone, who has entered the world of disc problems and back surgery just knows the pure physical pain and fear of never being normal again.
I am sure I've learned a lesson or two through being thrust into these clubs. I am positive my faith is sturdier. Not because I haven't questioned and I haven't doubted, but because I have. I am confident that I treasure each day WAY more than I ever have, yet I look forward to heaven WAY more than I ever have, too. I am positive my compassion for others in these situations and in general has increased tenfold. I am certain that I am so desperate for people to know Jesus, because I am convinced beyond a shadow of a doubt that He made it possible for me to withstand the hazing of these clubs. I am sure that being a member of these clubs is God's best for me. For every inch of me, I do not know how that is true, but I believe it is. I know that may sound nuts, but if I believe the Bible is true, then I believe He loves me and works for the good of me. I seriously do not want to really believe that, because I want there to be some other equation where I love Him enough for life to go well and comfy for me. That is not the case in God's economy, though. But His economy is amazing. No matter what happens, what clubs I join, good, bad, hard, easy, wanted, unwanted, He is there through it all. Nothing I do, can change that.
I bet there are a lot of people out there who are members of a club in which they never thought they would be a card carrying member. Can I get an amen?